Faith isn’t an emotion, I know that. But why does it appear the depth of my faith changes with my emotion? On good days I feel like nothing can stop us. On bad days I feel like we’re swimming up stream.
In high school I’d go on retreats and we’d all come back with an emotional high that would last about a week. It was great and faith seemed to be emanating from within each of us who attended. But, a week later, the feeling had dissipated, along with the sense of invincibility.
I deal with similar struggles with Sonlight Pictures.
One day I am ecstatic at the favorable response for PUSA, the next I’m wondering if we’ll ever be able to coordinate all of the people and places to shoot another one.
One day I feel like we’re touching lives, the next I feel like we’re not touching enough.
One day I feel like we’re making a difference, the next I feel like we’re not even close to breaking through the white noise of media saturation.
Faith is not an emotion. It’s a belief. It’s trust. It’s certainty in the undefinable.
I just wish my emotions would stop getting in the way.
More prayer. Struggles like this always require more prayer… and a lot of listening.