Mel Gibson was literally crucified in the media for making The Passion of the Christ. But his faith and its success showed two very important things…
1) There is a very big audience for Christian films, given the quality meets certain levels.
2) Hollywood has NO idea how to make such films.
This was great. A market and no one filling it.
So, I thought of Sonlight Pictures. This is perfect! I can fill my passion for filmmaking while also filling my growing passion for my Catholic faith! Awesome! This has got to be what God has wanted me to do with this creative drive he gave me.
But, I was afraid to ask him. What if he says No again? He said No to acting and I loved acting… the best job I’ve ever had. He said No to working in TV and I loved that too!
So, what if he says No again? This concept of Sonlight Pictures is too close to what is a perfect fit for me to risk him saying No.
In my own stupidity and without even being aware of it I tried to leverage my argument to God, in order to gain his approval for Sonlight PIctures, by putting a lot of work into it before asking him. I wrote an intense short drama. I wrote two very good Christian feature scripts. I bought an HD camera. I was building momentum.
And things were coming to a head.
You know how, when you’re in a relationship, as it grows it finally reaches a point where something has to change… you either have to get engaged or break it off? Simply staying in the same place would be the wrong decision… things would stagnate and eventually die on the vine.
This is where I was with Sonlight Pictures. Now that I had written material there was a lot of work ahead of me and if this wasn’t what the Lord wanted me to do then I would just be wasting my time.
But what if he says No? Again…
My fear of asking for permission from the Almighty evaporated at a visit to Eucharistic Adoration.